Nowadays, it feels like guys only pay attention to
girls that are compulsive heartbreakers. I feel as
though I might be too “nice” as a girl, because
I rather show self control emotionally when
engaging with the individual(s) I like,
rather than acting like that word doesn’t exist.
I still see careless girls, careless to how other
individuals feel and everything, win over the guys
that I like, or at least have a lot of their attention,
and it hurts. It makes me want to question everything,
such as why did I even bother recovering,
if being unstable is actually attractive in this day
and age, especially with video games with enabling
protagonists..? I suppose I seeked out professional
help in order to improve and get better, and develop
genuine coping skills instead of acting compulsively.
Seeing this pattern in online spaces honestly confuses
me. :c